Tuesday, September 22, 2009


The equinox today has been powerful. It has been a day filled with manifestations and thoughts of "the future is here". It truly is. I can feel it in every bone in my body. I can sense it in my heart and am working with it on higher soul levels.

I am trying to be what God intended me to be on this planet earth at this point in time. And finally my puzzle seems to be coming together. I feel a lightness in my body that is indescribable.

What is your life purpose? Ponder my friend, ponder on it, and go through with it. There is no better feeling, no higher joy, than to find your soul calling in this lifetime.



It doesn't have to be
the blue iris, it could be
weeds in a vacant lot, or a few
small stones; just
pay attention, then patch

a few words together and don't try
to make them elaborate, this isn't
a contest but the doorway

into thanks, and a silence in which
another voice may speak

-Mary Oliver

Tuesday, September 8, 2009


Have you ever walked in the city....oh how we love the city.... and wondered if we really, truly are free. Besides from all conspiracy theories that I believe in, besides all the crazy buy-use-throw away age we live in... forget about all of that for a second.

Have you ever seen how the trees and the plants in the city behave? They are doing everything in their power to get out of their prison. We have forced them to grown the way WE want to. We force them to stay within a certain area and only to breathe toxic air. Have you seen how the plants grow so far out from the fences sometimes... it is like they are reaching out, they don't want to be confined anymore. They naturally show us how much like a prison the city can be. We love the city... but isn't it some kind of hate-relationship at the core of us? I don't think we really were meant to sit in a car half of our day or breathe gray air or talk shit on the cell phone that is radiating cancer right into our brains. And so the plants silently protest.

And the trees...don't even get me STARTED...the trees are magical. Please read up on trees, you'd be a hippie tree-hugger too if you knew how much they are needed and the way they sustain humanity and the ecological system. Do ya research my friend. Read up. Get powerful in the name of knowledge.

The trees always break the cement. Slowly, we can't even hear it...bu they are always trying to root around and up. They are so mighty. Why can't we give them the love they deserve? I mean we get supplied with oxygen and fruits and shade and beauty and little creatures get to live in the crown, the list could go on for a while.

What the hell, go out and hug a tree or something :) If you sit with your back against one and still your heart and mind you will find yourself extremely energized. Take my word for it.

With love!


There is a lot of pain behind Gucci glasses and Fendi bags. High brands are fun, don't get me wrong...but only to a certain point. Everything is best balanced in life, so when you see spend time in LA you notice that there is s light imbalance going on, in the land of self-absorption. You tend to see a lot people that hide their smiles behind veneers as well as paint themselves with make-up, instead of touching up. Why do people hide behind their outer persona? Why are we so afraid to be vulnerable? To be our real selves.

I guess it is so much more comfortable to be someone else for a moment. If not that far, then at least carry a brand as if it was a part of my personality. We are afraid of being judged. So we choose the simple ways, the accepted ways, the mainstream lifestyle.

Some people take this fashoin thing dead serious. They live and die for it (literally). They inspire youngsters to only think about style all day. There is so much more to life. When can we start teaching our children to enjoy the moon one night, or smile when they see a rainbow instead?

I do not try to promote fairy tales here (although I do have an affinity for them), but it's just that it is tireing to see every other blog write about fashion fashion fashion. How much attention can you give to the outside, until you start realizing that i so much more fun to live through your inside. Oh wait... probably because pain plays an important role here.

Fashion is fun fun fun... I like it people! but come on...

Facing pain is hard. Sure. All of us can agree on that right... but to sit with pain, is OK. Let's just BREATHE and sit with it, it's ok, we all go through stuff, we come out wiser on the other side of the fence after the battle. But then we have all these lovely women and men, and all they talk about it clothes, shoes, bags, hats, perfumes, make-up, who did this or that.


It's nice, to a degree. I'm a woman. I enjoy taking care of myself and prepping my face and check my outfit for the day and look fierce... but where is the world going when children do not have water to drink and all we are doing is spend all of our energy and money on buyin shit every weekend. Thank God for the recession! Maybe that will force people to re-discover frugality and non-consumer lifestyles.

Woof, woof!

Monday, September 7, 2009


What is your intent?

Your answer says a lot about you. It tells you where you are going in life and what you are willing to focus your energy on. It shows me hat you think is important and what you wil manifest in your life in the near future.

Intent is straight focus. Intent is power. Intent is not asking.

Intent is CLAIMING. It is your birthright. You can claim whatever it is you want or need on all levels of life in this and other worlds, as long as you create in love, with love and aiming for love. Pure intent is the key to fulfilling your goals, your mission, your life path.

Ask yourself, do you really know what your intentions in this lifetime are? Have you discovered who you truly are so that you can be of service to the rest of this very special human race?

We all have a sacred mission at the heart of us, we just need to focus on where we are directing on intentions, so that we may be able to step up and into the roles we agreed to direct. We have a lot to do, so get going people... I am going to go write about my own intent now in my little diary.


Saturday, September 5, 2009

Baby boy turns 9 months

The love of my life is turning 9 months today. My son is my joy, my inspiration and a daily reminder of the mighty God/Universe in my life. I am so blessed to have been chosen to guide him in life. To experience all things with him. My biggest wish these days is to be the best mother I can be, because mothers are the most powerful instruments in shaping the future. Don't we all carry scars and fond memories related to our mothers? Isn't our whole lives affected by the way we were raised?

I carried my little Kamran (pronounce as Cameron) for 9 months. Today he is turning 9 months. Time flies and it makes me wonder how on earth I'm ever going to survive it all moving so fast forward. I really want this to be slower. I want to enjoy the NOW almost forever. You understand what I mean when/if you are a parent.
On the flip side it is very exciting to see him grow (very tall little person) and learn new tricks and things/words everyday. Amazing how someone wakes up with a smile EVERYYYYYYY day!

Here is a link to celebrate this joyous day. An old friend writing a bit about my musical past and my son. Picture there too, as well as beautiful songs by my former band mate. (It's been over 8 years now...wow...I'm telling ya, time flies...).



Friday, September 4, 2009

Embarking on a Journey

Salut dear reader,

I am so very excited about this new space I have. I am giving in to the internet, letting it become a very important part of my experience here on earth. This is my journey, my thoughts, my opinions, my feelings, my Spirit, my life, my love, my pain and everything in between documented. Let me warn you though... sometimes it might get intimate. And sometimes it might not. Sometimes I might irritate you and sometimes I might be the cutest thing you've ever seen. That's me in a nutshell I've heard. But please don't forget to share yourself with me, dear reader. Human beings are living paradoxes, we are vulnerable yet so strong. We are so social yet so private. We need attention but also seclusion. We are so complex in all of our simplicity. I am one of you.

Release all expectations (for you who know me personally) and just flow with me. This is it. I am a Soulistic Spiritualista, ready to share. Care to take a walk with me?